Yesterday I turned 47. Aside from my weight, I feel young well. My weight causes me to feel very uncomfortable and most of the time, I feel like I need an internal cleanse. Twice in the past month, I bought and ate a hot dog at 7 Eleven and ate it at the park. I am sneaking and eating... NOT good. I feel like I have to hide when I eat bad foods and I don't know who I am hiding from really, myself? All I know is that I didn't like doing it and that eating meat makes me smell bad. YES, i said smell bad! As in, don't sit down wind of me if I pass gas because I will blow you away or go in after me in the bathroom after I drop a load or you will regret it! OMG! I mean, it is HORRIBLE! A sure sign that I have no business eating meat. PERIOD. No meat. No dairy. No carbs... and absolutely NO EXCUSES.
I MUST take this trip to Los Angeles. And, I MUST not cheat on my diet anymore. I think, maybe, a part of me is doing it so I will find a reason not to go... but, go I must!!!! And go, I shall!!!
