"... yet still, the flower reaches to the Sun, knowing no other destiny ... no other purpose..."
When I was a little girl, my grandmother pulled me over to the side one day and told me that nothing in this world is easy. She told me that I was spoiled by my mother and that I needed to learn that the devil delights in temptation. It's his playground. So when everything seems to come too easy and I am getting everything that I want, this is when I need to get down on my knees and thank God for his grace because the devil has me within his sites!
I was too young to understand what she was talking about. But as time progressed, I began to understand that the devil doesn't waste his time with people he already has under his command... So, I accept my challenges and I accept my obstacles as a sign that God is still on my side and that the devil is going to continue to keep harassing me until I am fully in God's good graces... and even then he may not leave me alone!
These past couple of days of fasting has brought me clarity and shed light on things that once had me lost in darkness. The good news is that I see the light and I am keeping my face in the sun.
Already this week I have had opportunities to test my resolve. And I have not caved in. I can tell you, without any doubt, that this is a period of transition for me that is like no other. And, that it feels good to finally be out of the mud. I still get depressed, I still become sad, but these episodes do not last as long as they use to and I accept them as signs that I am still warm, loving, and kind...
Anger does not consume me. I sometimes get very upset but I do not hold on to anger. There is no sense of remorse. I feel no sense of guilt. I am finding solace sitting out by the lake. Gazing up at the stars at night. Sitting quietly, 3 minutes a day... One cannot focus on the negative in one's life and at the same time, be grateful and content.
When your heart finds its way into analytical thinking, pause and inquire—stop, take a breath, and ask Me what I am doing. Let My thoughts supersede your own. Know you have My mind even to the thoughts and intents of My heart. They dwell in you and are coming to the surface to transform all things.(Excerpt from Journals of the Heart by Brenda Craig).
Remember: Nothing is too difficult for God. A Thankful and a Grateful heart Always Loves.
Day three of the Master Cleanse and still doing well. No hunger at all. Primarily because I fast every weekend now and have extended fasting from Sunset Friday to sunset Saturday to Sunset Friday to Sunset on Sunday. I will break my fast tonight.
