I was up late last night...
Here are my notes:
Trouble sleeping. Haven't broken my stride though... looking at Italian Ceramic tables...and dinnerware. Looking for pasta bowls and etc. NOT hungry. Just looking for pretty things. I don't mind spending more on things if i eat less. Looking foreward to the money I will save by eating less!
Venezia
12:07 Reprogramming My Mind
Made it from 12PM yesterday to over 12PM today on just Chicken and Beef Bouillon, filtered water, St. John's Wart tea, Organic Mango and Papaya Juice.
I took all of my supplements, on schedule.
I am off schedule today, but doing fine. I too my first round at 9AM so now I am about to take my second round of supplements.
What I didn't take was the Roca Labs. I just forgot about it. And, I survived.
I watched Weight Loss Hypnosis Videos and focused on my breathing and relaxation...The only drawback was that I didn't actually sleep last night. I was up all night going from my bed to my laptop to the television but I DID NOT OPEN THE REFRIGERATOR OR EAT!
I even survived my son's 3AM cooking. The smell alerted me to get up, but I walked into the kitchen, looked at him, heated up some more hot water and went back into my bedroom and listened to the Hypnosis video...
I don't know if the messages helped or if having something else to do helped... But I know I FINALLY broke a bad habit.
I feel I am in control now.
I have decided to go ahead and download the MP3 as soon as I find my card (I have $30.00 on it that I never used)... I believe that as long as I keep saying to myself and to others that I am in control, I will be.
No one seems to care about what you eat when you are eating badly...Few people comment on that. But, when you are on a quote un quote diet, all of a sudden everyone is an expert and has an opinion. They all tell you what you are doing wrong or should not be doing or act as if they are the authority on some subject that you, yourself may have a great deal of knowledge and information about, but have CHOSEN to ignore.
I decided to shut those Holier than Thou people down!
Tune them out.
Ignore them.
Because being physiologically imbalanced is a TEMPORARY state, not a symbol of my ignorance or stupidity. I didn't become an idiot just because I became obese. I am not less intelligent or capable or qualified because I am carrying extra baggage...
I think of it this way,
I think, subconsciously, people downgrade our status to "doorman" or "bell boy"... because they think we are use to carrying luggage.
Well, I challenge that!
MY luggage, is being left off where I picked it up from now on!
Just like when I board an airline now, I am traveling light!
I will only take what I need and leave what I don't.
Amen!
